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I left a very violent and abusive relationship over 10 years ago. I just ran. And ran. And ran. I never really spoke to anone about it apart form the basics and have moved on. I am now happily married with two beautiful DCs.
The thing is I still have nightmares about him, and his friends, and the things he threatened to do to me, and what I imagine he would do if he ever saw me again.
Despite myself I couldn't help googling his name. And found something, and looked it up. And it's pictures of him, on a dating site. I feel sick.
Can anyone tell me why the hell I just did that?
Is 10+ years too long to still be having (on average 1 per month) nightmares about my past?
And if you think that if we ever did bump into each other he would do something bad?
I am fairly sure I wasn't the first girl he abused and am certain I wasn't the last. But he has some fairly nasty contacts who have probably scared people (like me) off from pressing charges.
Any advice?
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Why the hell did I just do that?
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bangersandcrash · 19/03/2012 12:26
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