Will try & keep this brief, but need advice on how I can try and save my marriage. Had another massive row with DH last night and are no longer speaking. Row was about his parents & how they treat me & DS's. There have been a number of occasions over the years where his parents have really hurt me with the way they treat me, what they say to me and their selfish behaviour.
Each time they have upset me, I have bitten my tongue & not risen to it but have afterwards asked DH to talk to his parents as I felt it would be better coming from him and we could smooth things over better. I really thought that maybe it was done without realising rather than maliciously. DH NEVER said anything to them.
Anyway, things came to a head a few weeks ago and I asked DH to speak to his parents and told him that on this occasion if he didn't, I would and that he should not expect me to hold back. He did speak to them (or so he says). They then went on holiday for 2 weeks. I told DH that I wanted an apology from them & an acceptance that there behviour on this particular issue was wrong. They are now back from their holiday and DH expects me to carry on as normal and that nothing should be mentioned.
I know this probably sounds quite trivial, and compared to some of the things others are going through it is, but I feel that I come second in my marriage to his parents and have reached breaking point. I had a very bad childhood and still suffer from self esteem issues so the way DH's parents treat me coupled with the way I feel like I come second to them in my marriage is not doing me any good.
Whilst I love DH and don't want to split, I can't see a way forward. DH knows how his parents make me feel at times and his defence of them is that it is the way they are and I should accept it. Whilst DH prioritises his parents feelings over mine, I can't see this marriage surviving and would rather end it before we get to the stage of being bitter & nasty and destroying DS's.
I just feel like bursting into tears the whole time and am dreading having to go home. I feel like an idiot even considering walking away from this marriage - DH is a good man, we have a good life, nice house, 2 gorgeous DS's, but I don't know how long I can go on with my self confidence being chipped away at (it took me years of self-loathing and harming to get to where I am today and I don't want to go back. I want to be a good Mum for my boys). Advice needed please - even if it is a kick up the backside!
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Poogles · 05/10/2011 15:56
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