My DP went out for a drink last night after work, saying he'd be home by midnight. At 4am our DS (22mo) and I were woken up by a drunken phone call from DP, saying he had to tell me something, and that he'd been using cocaine for the last five months and he wanted my help. When questioned, he said he uses it every time he goes out with his mates or workmates (which is about once every week or two), and that he gets it from his two best (university) mates or a colleague. He's currently dead to the world, stinking out the upstairs with beer fumes.
It explains a few things - why his hangovers last three days, why he's constantly knackered and yet can't sleep properly. He repeatedly says he's 'never drinking again' and that I have to stop him going out.
We've always argued, but it's got a lot worse this year. For a long time he convinced me it was my fault, but I'd come to realise that he has anger issues - completely overreacting, shouting and swearing (earlier this week he shouted at me for making a slightly tasteless comment, terrifying DS, and then poured a cup of tea over the dinner I'd made and smashed the mug on the floor). DP is doing a GTP, training to become a primary school teacher, and I'd put his outbursts down to stress, but maybe there's another explanation? I don't know if taking coke a few times a month can have this effect?
What makes this worse is that, for financial reasons, we had planned for him to move into the spare room of these two mates, while DS and I went to stay with my PILs, and DP finishes his course. Clearly they're a bad influence (and yes, the colleague who gives him drugs is also a primary school teacher (deputy headteacher, actually) and has always seemed unhinged) so I can't let him move in with them now. But we can't afford to stay where we are...
Gah, I'm sorry this is so long. How bad is this? Last night he kept saying I had to help him, but I fear he's going to expect me to sort it out without any input from him. I'm beginning to see that he's totally irresponsible (there is other evidence of this). I'm sorely tempted to cut up his bank cards and treat him like a child - would this be overreacting?
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grrrfedup · 16/07/2011 08:29
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