In summary:
With ex for 23 years (married 15) 2 children
Discovered affair 2 years ago, worked to save for 1 year!! - split 14 months ago, parent ill/died at same time - now divorced and ex lives with OW he 'didn't have an affair with' (yeah, right!)
Finances sorted, about to move into new home ...
All good and positive (I can't believe how far I have come from the depressed person I was last year ... I feel at a loss that I seem to have gone back a bit), know that I would never want to be with ex BUT ... arrghhh, frustratingly ...
I appear to be getting worked up by little things that just keep culminating in tears
Ex sees the kids when it is convenient for him (there is a routine but if I try to flex it he refuses but for him it is OK!) Every other weekend
We both work (me from home!) which is uses and has our children for 2 weeks a year - he has 7 weeks annual leave a year
He is living the life of fully as single person (OW kids older and away from home) - holidays, weekends away, concerts, you name it ....
NOW - I don't actually care so much about him/her doing those things ... I seem to have this ridiculous voice in my head saying constantly ... this is SO UNFAIR ... I can't do these things, I have noone to do these things with, etc I feel like a child and want it to stop.
I have tried dating myself ... PoF really has made me think that all men are nutters or players (which I know can't be true) ...
So, at the moment I think life is unfair and I will be alone forever ... this really does make me feel very sad.
Can anyone give me some hope???? I really don't want to play a victim and know that the world is my oyster, I have 2 lovely children and my silly thoughts are just ruining what should be a happy time ...
D'oh ...
I have read lots of posting on this site and I must say what an inspiration you all are ...
Hope to hear back from some of you ...
Thanks! x
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I'm sure I'm normal ... lol ... just need some support really ...
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TC123 · 03/07/2011 09:13
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