I have always had a difficult relationship with my mum. She is like Jekyll and Hyde and flips at the flick of a switch, then switches off again expects you to act as if nothing happened. If you bring it up later it makes her angry and she'll launch a rant at you that makes you feel horrible. She'll bring up all sorts from the past. The occasional time she acknowledges she was wrong to act like that she'll make excuses and twist it round so it was your fault really.
She has a disportionally angry reaction to small things and noone can stop her. My dad died 4 years ago and before that she had PTSD, both of which she loves to use as excuses, even though she was like this before any of those happened. In a recent episode she basically told me that due to her past PTSD she doesn't like being questioned and that I am never to do so r she will go ballistic. I have to walk on eggshells around her and never know what will set her off, her boundaries vary wildly on different days.
She also likes to set traps, for example offering to look after DS and making a huge point of not giving me a time to be back, then getting very angry when we were later than she wanted.
When I was a teenager I was adamant that we (me, dad, sister) needed to stand up to her but dad hated confrontation and would just tell me to apologise and keep the peace "you know she is wrong, I know she is wrong, but just say sorry to her and she'll be nice again" and my gran "when you get to a certain age you realise that these things don't matter, just smooth it over and keep her sweet". Now I have become them.
DH has known my mum for a couple of years now and has seen me getting hurt over and over, seen me become a quivering wreck and terrified of her. He has heard about the time when I was 18 months old and smeared poo all over my freshly painted nursery and my dad having to pull her off me because she went so mental over it. He has seen her undermining me and shouting at me in front of 14 month DS. He has swept under the carpet the time she had a massive rant about his family, calling them "a bunch of pigs" and saying how she is embarrassed to be associated with them.
DH has had enough and does not want DS to see her until she gets anger management help.
I need to talk to her about these issues but I don't know how to do it without causing world war three. I thought I might write a letter. I'm really scared that this will tear my family apart, my granny will be devastated and my sister is still living at home and doing A levels, and the last thing I want to do is make problems for her.
I don't want to lose my mum, I want to have a normal relationship with her where I'm not walking on eggshells. But every single argument I have with DH is because of her behaviour and me trying to defend her and find justifications. I can't do it anymore. I also don't want to it look like DH has swanned in and split up my family, because he hasn't, he is just seeing the situation from the outside and is where I was years ago - the difference is he doesn't have any obligation to smooth things over.
Sorry this is so long.
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IAmTheCookieMonster · 23/06/2011 14:55
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