So sorry for the essay, i'll try not to go on!
so ive been with my partner for 10 years, there is a significant age gap.
we have a daughter who is 8 this month who is diagnosed with asd and adhd so times can be tricky!
we both desperately wanted another child, and have tried since the birth of our daughter with no success. we gave up all hope beginning of this year and was being careful as you never know! i finally came to terms with the fact i would only ever have one child.
we live in a small house, as there was no point n upsizing, more than enough room here for 3 but 4 would cramped. my daughter would also be upset with the prospect of moving although she would cope.
i also have longstanding mental health problems(normally well controlled) although i have recently been put on PIP, and a month ago i had a relapse so my partner is worried if we continued with this pregnancy it would negatively affect me.
ive been taken by surprise finding out i was pregnant, and dont actually know how far along i am. should be 5/6 weeks but period last month was 2 days and very light so potentially could be slightly further. so feel the hormones may have caused my crisis a month ago.
also im struggling with the fact i have been smoking a lot, drinking more than usual (not much but a lot for me) as well as strong prescription meds...and what if i have caused some damage?
my partner is also concerned as there is an age gap he doesnt want to be aged with a younger child. which contributed to our decision to stop trying.
so there is many reasons here to not continue, but we spent years desperately trying and half of me is terrified of having an abortion, i feel like i would have tremendous guilt afterwards, and i dont know how that would affect me. im booked into the clinic next thursday but im so torn!!! i have only just made peace with the fact i would never have another child, very recently got back into horses so i purchased 2, its just all a huge minefield and such bad timing!!
the pros are few but include, stable financially, secure relationship, large support network, our daughter wants a sibling shes asked constantly since she was 3, mine and my partners lifeplan was always 2 children.
anyone have any advice or been in a similar situation?
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Dreading having an abortion...so confused!!
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busymummy132 · 04/07/2019 02:09
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