Hello,
I never thought I would be writing this, but here I am. I have two beautiful children and had been trying for a third. We got pregnant, and I developed extreme anxiety, depression, rapid heartbeat, wanting to miscarry the baby. I have no idea where this was all coming from or why I felt like that. I never felt like that when I was pregnant with my other two. I have no history of mental illness.
I don't even know how terminating the pregnancy got in my mind, but it did. I contemplated ending the pregnancy for a few weeks, and sadly, with support from my mom and husband, ended the pregnancy. I regretted it immediately. I was out of my mind. I can't even understand how I got to that point at this time. It's been just over a week since it happened.
I'm devastated that I did this and so heartbroken. I didn't know anything about prenatal depression until after I had the termination. I wish my doctors had noticed it. In my right mind, I never would've have done that.
I guess I'm just looking for support on how to get through this. We are happy family and I don't want that to change. I love my children with all of my heart and don't want this to affect them in any way.
It feels like it was an out of body experience,. I'm so confused as to how any of this happened.
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findinghope · 15/11/2018 15:16
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