Struggling with decision...

[Bubble04]

I'm not sure if this is the right place to put this but I'm struggling and was looking for some impartial advise.

I have 2 DC, age 9 and 11 and been married 15 years. I love our family unit. BUT we always said we wouldn't rule out a 3rd baby. We said we would get life sorted then talk about it again. I went to uni and did a PGCE, and am now 5 years in as a teacher, and DH retrained too. We moved house to our dream location (although we rent rather than own). DC are settled in school and live it. Now I feel ready to think about a 3rd and am really broody. DH says let's just stop preventing it and see what happens, but I don't think he minds either way. Im just worried I'm being selfish wanting another.

We're not rolling in cash, so it would be tricky. The DC would have to share a bedroom again. DH was hoping to go on a big holiday in the summer and that couldn't happen if I was pregnant (too risky medically). I know I'm running out of time though. I'm 38. Is the whole thought of having another crazy/selfish/reckless?

[Unsureandupset]

I'd be considering child care etc after mat leave if you can manage all that and you are ready to have a little one again then why not, it boils down to what you want and how it will affect your lives.

Be careful of the it might not happen because you are 38 thoughts though because it might and it might happen quickly.