I am 44 and with a heavy heart for many reasons (age included) dh and I have booked in for a surgical termination tomorrow morning.
I will have sedation but unsure if I want GA or mild, dh wants me to have GA but will recovery be longer? I would want to see my dh as soon as after as I understand we will be separated and I would want leave the clinic asap as possible. Does anyone know how long I'd be in recovery for either?
Part of me wants mild sedation so I am fully aware of my decision, the procedure and to feel the feelings ... however GA I fear I wake up panicked... Feel like I've taken the easy route being asleep. Not sure if that makes sense? I've been told mild sedation I may not remember anything anyway is this true?
I am searching for stories of women my age post abortion, to read something that tells me something else but its all similar, my eyes are wide open, life will never be the same, this is the end of the road for us, our family will be complete as it is, there will be no going back only forward.
My heart and head is in conflict, but deep in my heart it's the right thing to do, life will go on eventually right?? But I will accept to take this self inflicted scar on my heart to my grave, I won't ever forget. Dh and I will work to make us stronger, this will drive us to be better parents, people , a better future, but knowingly for this awful sacrifice of what is a gift a blessing, I know I sound torn, is that normal?
Sorry for disjointed garble, thanks for reading, any experiences post would be welcomed, thank you.
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Tearsdropping · 11/06/2015 07:52
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