Hi everyone, sorry to moan but I'm getting worried about stuff. Some of you might know me from antenatal thread I'm due in April. I know it's a bit early for worrying but I feel I just need to voice my worries or I'm going to get more and more anxious.
Ok in my last pregnancy (DS now 3) I was induced at 39+3 due to pre-eclampsia. The labour and birth went amazingly well and BP returned to normal as soon as DS was born. 3 days later and as I'm waiting to leave the hospital with new baby a student MW checks my BP and finds it has risen again. She asks older MW in front of me and old MW says "don't be silly I've seen women with BP loads higher than that". Anyway student was still worried and said to me that if any signs of PE return I am to come back into hosp straight away.
I got home and was fine until woken in the middle of the night by a terrible nightmare that I was dying. i got out of bed and felt drunk and woozy. Naive me thought I was exhausted because of new baby and just went back to sleep.
Next morning all PE symptoms returned and just as I said to DP we should go back to hosp and check, I collapsed and started having convulsions. I was rushed into hosp in ambulance and re-admitted. I kept having convulsions all day which kept being stopped my magnesium drip. Heard MW in hall casually talking about me calling me the sickest woman in the hospital (it was a maternity hosp in Ireland BTW)
Anyway by 2am after being there all day and after the doctors continually having to rescue me from the on-going fits, they wheeled me through to theatre and said they had to just make me sleep for 2 mins to stop the fits.
I woke up next morning in intensive care in a different hospital, hooked up to all kinds of machines and with a breathing tube down my throat. DP later told me I was rushed from maternity hosp to general hosp in an ambulance with doctor, nurses and all kinds of machinery.
I was in there for 2 days, wasn't allowed to see my baby due to risk of a newborn coming into hospital. They sent me polaroids from SCBU where they were looking after him for me.
I was transferred to a gynaecology ward where the elderly woman across from me died in the middle of the night. I had to listen to them perform CPR on her.
I was eventually sent home to my baby and DP where I recovered and gradually put this all to the back of my mind.
(BTW it turned out that the dream I had of dying was also convulsions, it was my first fit, and I thank whoever is up there that I woke up from that)
It's only now I'm pregnant again that I'm becoming more and more terrified. I was so close to dying last time I just don't think I can mentally cope if I even get symptoms of PE.
Look I'm sorry to go on for so long, but I had to get this out. I just want proper care this time I don't ever want to go through that again.
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tristaleejac · 03/09/2008 21:47
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