I got a very unexpected bfp yesterday and am so frightened. We lost our tiny son earlier this year after he died in the womb at 17 weeks. I gave birth to him, and we had a funeral service for him. We called him James.
Second pregnancy also ended in heartbreak three months ago at the 12 week scan.
We planned to try again next year, giving us time to heal but somehow I am pregnant again...about 4 weeks along bearing in mind the last time we had sex. I'm on the pill and have been very careful, but I guess I'm one of the 2%..
I can't even bring myself to be excited this time, I just feel dread because I am sure that this pregnancy is going to end the same way. We already have a 3 year old DS and it's been so hard keeping ourselves cheerful and positive for his sake this year, I don't think I have the strength to do it any more.
If any of you have been through similar experiences could you please tell me what to expect? Will I be able to have more scans? I won't be able to relax at all through this pregnancy. I feel no optimism. I can't share this with any of my friends or family because it's just too early and not fair to involve them again so soon; they felt our losses very deeply too.
I'm a mess! And DS is full of cold, I feel sick, DP is working 12 hours overtime and I know he's gutted about this pregnancy. This baby is so wanted. Please help me calm down.
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Pregnant for the third time this year and terrified
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RalphGnu · 01/11/2012 10:13
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