Still has not sunk in?

[xmasevebundle]

Im 20+5 and i dont feel pregnant. Im having a boy due on christmas eve, i feel him move and kick it dont seem real.

Its been so fast the last 20weeks breaking up with my partner and sometimes i still cant get over what hes done(i left him after he told me to get rid of it etc).

Its still hard we use to talk about babys when we was together and even planned to have a baby.

Still in shock ive got my baby everything and im so happy to see him and meet him. I do feel like ive kind of let him down because of what happened with me and the father.

He didnt want to work it out and i understand why but hes taking it out on his son.

I am over him in my head and heart but there is something there that makes me angry. Ive cried so much i cannot cry anymore.

Its just a big blur all the time :(

[twolittlebundles]

It sounds as though you have had a really difficult time of it recently. DO you have any family or friends who are supporting you?

It's quite normal to not 'feel' pregnant sometimes, but if you are feeling really low, it would be worth talking to a doctor about it.

It is really hard to do it all on your own- you clearly have made the best choice for yourself and your son. Easier said than done, but you can't control what your ex does, so try to focus on what is best for you.

[xmasevebundle]

I dont have friends, i stay in most of the time. I talk to a few people or go town but i have trust issues.

My family support me 100% if it wasnt for my mum i could not of done it

I am seeing my MW on wendesday but i dont think bringing it all up again to and talking to someone will make it better ill just dwell and re-think of it.

I have made the best choice its lonely being pregnant at times. Since the 13th july Ive been out the house twice, once to go my scan and other to go town.

Is it normall to want to stay in?? I dont want to go out and want to stay ay home all the time and be left alone or watch a dvd?!

I did ask to join the mums group but i haven't heard from them so i think i'll pass on it as it done in weeks and everyone will no each other and i'll be left out.

[twolittlebundles]

Great that your family are so supportive- makes a difference.

Did you prefer to stay at home before you were pg?

I'm not suggesting you necessarily have it, but have you thought about antenatal depression? I think you need to talk to the MW about how you feel- just to check it all out. She may have some good suggestions. I think being alone in the house might not be helping you to feel any better.

Which mums group? I bet there are a few out there- even online there are a few- like this www.mumsnet.com/Talk/lone_parents/1516470-Facing-pregnancy-alone

[xmasevebundle]

I lived with my ex we use to do alot of things together go out driving, cinema etc.

I have been depressed before when my nan died but i still eat okay and like looking extra nice when i go out?

I find it hard to trust after what ive been through. Been betrayed and its not nice.

I will talk to my MW about it. I have been excited for so long for my 20w scan and i feel quite down after it because i was so happy it was a boy?

Thank you for the link, i will go on it.

[twolittlebundles]

It is hard doing it all alone, especially when it isn't what you had planned. I am sure you'll find some great support on the thread, and good luck with the MW visit!

[xmasevebundle]

Thank you for the chit chat :) Im on the thread now.

Thanks again.

[Pickles77]

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