Please tell me it changes?
I realise this may be a thorny subject for some and I don't want to upset anyone.
I found out I was pregnant a couple of days ago. Dp is over the moon but I hate it. I feel so guilty writing this but I really don't want to be pregnant or have another child yet (morning after pill didn't work and this is the result).
I already have a dc and had a very difficult pregnancy to the point that either or both of us could have died. I've raised dc as a single mum for two years which has been bloody hard work as they have had a lot of developmental and health problems. Everything is just starting to get resolved, they will be starting school this year and I would start to get a bit of my life back and then this happens.
I've been in tears the last couple of days, all while trying to put on a happy face. I could never go through with an abortion as I had one at a young age and suffered mental health problems because of it for years after.
I know I've made my bed and have to lie in it but I feel like such a shitty person feeling this way. What kind of mother does that make me? I'm worrying will I bond with the baby? I'm already starting to feel resentful of dp. He can still go out and drink with his mates, go to work when the baby comes. My uni plans have had to be put on hold indefinately.
Has anyone else felt like this at the start and gone on to love their pregnancy?? I'm really just hoping that seeing a scan or feeling the baby move will eventually stir my maternal feelings but I'm scared that it won't.
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anyone been less than enthusiastic about being pregnant?
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notexcited · 27/01/2012 11:18
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