I've been having recent thoughts that I'm not sure if they are usual anxiety or something more.
I'm 25 weeks pg and this baby was very planned and wanted. I feel blessed to be pg, especially after suffering a mc last year.
I have been getting ocasional 'cripes what have I done? am I ready?' moments which come and go, but also 'can't wait' ones so I take this to just be the emotions of pregnancy. However, I've also noticed recently that sometimes when I feel baby kicking I feel sort of upset and resentful at this unknown creature making me so uncomfortable. I've also had ocasional worries that once the baby comes I'll lull into depression and be unable to cope or deal or look after the baby and feel much pressure to be a good mother and do everything as well as I possibly can.
This pressure comes from no one but me - I'm a bit of a perfectionist in my work life and strive to be the best I can be. Since getting pg I've had a very tough time with bad nausea, feeling generally rotten, bad back, dizziness etc etc etc. I often cry as I've now had over 5 months of feelign like I'm living and moving through a fog and don't feel myself or capable of doing anything - I can't manage long out of home every day as I get tired so easily and become generally rubbish. I've been signed off for most of my pregnancy due to various pregnancy issues and now my GP tells me not to return before my maternity leave. I also have a history of being suseptable to anxiety/worry/depression, and being pg seems to have made it much worse. I'm not sure tbh if the time off makes me think about things too much as I have to rest alot and spend alot of time thinking about and reading about pregnancy and babies.
I know I'm having a bad pg so this is bound to take its toll. My mw knows about my anxiety and I've had to fill out a special vulrerable person form so they know I'm very anxious about things. Do other people have these thoughts? Please tell me I'm not going mad?! I feel so bad for thinking them as I just want a lovely little baby and to feel myself.
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Is this normal pre baby anxiety? quite long
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angels1 · 11/11/2010 14:35
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