Hi everyone,
My beautiful boy was born 6 weeks ago now. The birth was horrific and I had an undiagnosed velamentous cord which meant I had to have the placenta manually removed after. I was under general anaesthetic so missed out on a good few hours of time with my boy.
Due to the complications and how dehydrated I was I was unable to breastfeed. I'm hopeful that my baby got some colostrum as I managed to feed him a few times during the first day. I tried expressing by hand and with a pump but there was never enough.
I am really struggling to adjust to Mum life. I love my son more than life itself but I have become almost resentful at how much my life has changed. I miss my job and I miss having a purpose. Along with this I am carrying the guilt that I couldn't breastfeed my baby, the feeling that I somehow contributed to how awful my sons birth was and the general feeling I am failing.
The past 6 weeks have been tough- little one has silent reflux so we haven't had much sleep. He also has sleep myoclonus so when he is asleep he's twitching so much that he wakes himself up.
I have tried talking to DH but it's hard to put into words how i feel without sounding like I resent our baby!
Please tell me it gets better?
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Imwingingit · 08/01/2020 00:47
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