Feeling very low and stuck

[ADAMLEO1]

Hi I am new here so please bear with me and be kind.

I have a 4 week old, a 20 month old and 3.5year old and I am overwhelmed, sad and feel stuck and feeling all these makes me feel guilty.

I feel awful for even admitting the fact that i feel stuck.. i feel like life has just stopped and all i do is look after the children (who i love and adore whole heartedly) but I feel like this is it!
I find myself just crying and feeling so stressed and anxious about everything. We have just had a week where we all caught d+v and it turned me to a nervous wreck that the newborn might catch it. I have booked myself a doctors appointment to talk things through but until then I just wondered if anyone feels/felt the same? Does it get easier?
My husband works long nights so I am alone alot of the time and my family live an hour and half away and my mum passed away 5 years ago so shes not even on the end of the phone! My husbands family can be helpful sometimes but arent very forthcoming and when your struggling I find it hard to constantly ask.
My 3 year old is at preschool 2 days a week but when hes home he is hard work! He answers back, shouts, screams and totally disrupts everything I love him dearly but he is making life harder than it already is. It is also encouraging my 20month old to act the same. I feel so lost days roll in to one. I'm sorry for the long post I just needed to get it out.

[Letsnodothisplease]

Can you talk to your health visitor to ask for extra help?

[Maverick66]

I just want to say everything you are feeling is perfectly normal
Do you have a Sure Start programme near you?
Please reach out to someone like your health visitor, husband or a neighbour and ask for help there is no shame in asking for help.
I know there hasn't been a lot of response to your thread so far ...but hang in there.
Nothing is as difficult as having three children under three without support of close family. 🍰💐

[RC000]

I am feeling like you and only have 2 so I think you are amazing!

[Chazza1788]

Thank you for your kind comments. I hope it's just a phase and things will get easier. I'm just fed up of feeling miserable and it rubbing off on the other 2 but it's so hard to see a light at the end of the tunnel x