This is the first time I have admitted this. And I feel awful and very guilty all the time. But I'm not enjoying being a parent.
I have a nearly 12 week old daughter. We had a difficult birth followed by a stay in hospital for infections and afterwards I felt completely shell shocked.
Dd has been challenging since we got back from the hospital to say the least. She cries ALOT and nothing I seem to do makes her happy. I live far away from my family and friends so I have no support. During the week while OH is at work I just sit in the house waiting for him to get home.
Taking dd out of the house fills me with dread. Starts off the car or the pram - she screams uncontrollably in either one. Then when we finally get to wherever we are going she screams until we get home. Nothing I can do will stop her.
I feel so defeated. I feel like a failure because This is not what I imagines at all. I thought I'd be a great mum. I thought I'd have a smiley happy baby who is take out for lovley walks and have a great timw together. Turns out it's the complete opposite.
I love my dd, but I am struggling so much. I find myself dreaming of the days before I got pregnant when I'd go to the pub on a whim or pop to the shops and have a leisurely coffee. I even dream of having a shower every morning (which is something I am not able to do until OH gets home)
I feel like an awful mum because she is so unsettled and i cant seem to do anything right.
People have told me it gets better but i just can't see an end to this.
Sorry for the ramblings but I'm at my wits end.
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Pegler · 24/09/2017 11:28
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