Hi mumsnetters, I am so absolutely mortified that I am even writing this thread, but I don't know where else to turn. My dd is almost 4 weeks old, and I feel like I am near breaking point. When she was first born, everything was fine, I felt normal...like my usual self, just with a small person in tow. But the last 2 weeks have been a living hell. She has started getting into this habit of screaming and squirming against her bottle, and tensing her legs up...so feeding time has become a chore rather than the relaxing half an hour its supposed to be - I have since discovered that she's just a greedy guts who was getting frustrated because the milk wasn't coming out quick enough - so I took a 3am trip to tescos last night to get some medium flow teats, and am praying that today will be different. Also, she seems completely against taking any daytime naps whatsoever. I will feed her, burp her, change her bum, and she will be yawning her head off, but forces her eyes wide open to avoid sleep (I've ordered Ewan the Dream Sheep off eBay to see if he helps at all). If I put her in the moses basket, she screams and gets herself into such a tizz that nothing I do seems to soothe her. And what makes the sleep situation even worse, when my husband comes home from work and she's in one of her screaming episodes, he picks her up and she is instantly silent...It's making me feel like my own baby hates me...but then again I count down the minutes to him coming home because then I can just hand her over and let him deal with her (which makes me sound like a vile person, I know). I've tried talking to my mum about how helpless and at the end of my tether I feel, and the only response I get from her is "well it's not always going to be easy" - which is obviously not helpful at all! She seems to think I am just being dramatic, and dismisses it. I don't now if this is just baby blues/lack of sleep, or whether it's turning into something more, I am just way too embarrassed to talk to my HV or GP. I feel like they will either dismiss it as me being silly just like my mum did, or they will raise a red flag against my name and treat me like a crazy person who might hurt her baby! I'm not having any sinister thought about hurting myself or dd, but sometimes I pray for someone to just come and take her away I hate myself for feeling that way, but I just can't help it...I feel like I'm losing the plot!
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emzii206 · 15/05/2015 16:35
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