I have name changed because I am so embarrassed and ashamed of myself!
I have had problems with my ds on and off since he was around 4 but things got really bad when he was 5 1/2. Now he is 11 and things can be out of control between us, i don't mean violence I mean verbally.
Anyway today I was talking to someone about a VERY big thing happened which affected us both.
Basically my dad was taken ill and after 3 months died.
BUT this is the part that I have now realised what a horrible person I am!
A week before my dad died, i collected him and took him home for the afternoon. DS was playing with my nephew who was then 3 and started tantruming over a pencil....Because dad had spent the best part of 3 months in hospital I had to pick ds up and go home....the following Saturday he died...I never got to spend another moment with him outside of hospital again.
I have realised today that I have been harbouring up the hurt i felt that day...
and yes I am unreasonable for having done this and I am horrible for letting it fester in me.....
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OMGHowAwfulAmI · 16/10/2009 23:57
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