Dont want to go back to work

[Pilki]

Just wanted to put down how I felt really.
Had my DD nearly 9 weeks ago and the first three weeks were pretty rocky. I thought I had PND as was feeling so low. But then something clicked and I adore being a mummy and my DD is the most amazing little lady ever.

I could sit and watch her gurgle and play all day. The thing is Im going to have to return to work in January as we just can't afford for me to be off any longer than that. Im already dreading it. I really really don't want to go back. I don't want to miss out on her growing up, I'm getting all emotional thinking about it.

Just wondering how other mummys cope??
I'm trying to negoiate with work to let me return part time.

I left her for two hours with my mum today and when I left my mum's I felt like my heart was breaking..

[thisisyesterday]

awww pilki, i can't say i have been in your situation but i did have a uni place that I gave up because I just couldn;t bear to be parted from ds1
i am lucky to be able to be a sahm now, but can totally understand how you feel.

I hope that work are understanding about you going back part time.
also though, a lot will change before January. it's sop much harder leaving her now because she is still so tiny. Come january you;ll be leaving a much more independent little lady it will be absolutely fine I am sure

[TurtleAnn]

Why is this on your mind at the moment? Do you have a big decision to make? January is along way away.

I did a keeping in touch day yesterday and it felt good. My DS is 2-months old, it was awful leaving him, but it felt good to be 'TurtleAnn' instead of just 'DS's Mum". I realised my priorities have changed and getting home on the tube became a big priority to make it home in time for bath, lullaby and bed, every delay was ultra-frustrating. Staying late and working from home in the evenings are no longer an option.

Good luck, it will all work out in the end for you.