I have a DD 2 and DS 10 weeks. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do so please don't judge me.
This has all come about in the last couple of weeks and I can't believe I'm going to say this but I feel nothing, I look at my 2 beautiful children and nothing, no rush of love no nothing. I feel like I'm watching strangers children and their not mine. Everything I have to do for them feels like nothing but a chore. I do things because I have to not because I want to. My partner works 4 days a week and when he's not at home I sit and cry, I'm constantly shouting at my 2 year old and telling my little boy to shut up because he does nothing but cry. Nothing I do feels good enough for them they would be better off without me.
When DP is not at work I don't do a single thing because I don't want to and I don't have the energy. I go back to work in may and I really can't wait. I really can't cope by myself and I'm ashamed to admit it, I carried these children and gave birth to them and I hate feeling like this because it's really not their fault. They were both planned and I've always been maternal so I really didn't plan to be feeling this way
Does this make me a bad mum. I do want more children but am I always going to feel like this because if so I'm not having any more
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Andysgirl15 · 11/03/2017 13:17
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