Just in need of someone to tell me I am feeling completely normal or give me a good shake...either would be appreciated.
I have a beautiful, clever amazing 14 month old daughter who is mine and my partners world. He works I look after her full time time but due to go back to work in a few weeks.
I am 26, half of my friends have kids half don't. I never really got a huge feeling that I was missing out since becoming a mum it just is what it is. Previously I had a fantastic social life, a good job, money, nice clothes etc and plenty of plans with my partner.
The past two days we have been meeting up with my partners best friend and his new gf and it has made me feel like I am mourning my past life! They are totally in love, responsibility free and have excess money. They are popping off to Thailand for two weeks etc etc I just want to sob with jealousy! It's like I have realised all of sudden how restricted my life now is and how little freedom I actually have. I feel like I am in mourning! How ridiculous when I have such a perfect daughter sleeping in the other room! Cue GUILT!
Tonight my partner has gone to meet up with the couple and his other friends for food and drinks and I said it was fine but I just feel like crying tonight. I would love to just be going out for impromptu drinks and adult conversation but I feel stuck and have never have had this since having my baby.
I have quite a good social life still by that I mean I go out with friends every couple of weeks and my mum is good at having our little one so we get nights together it's just I feel like it's hit me like a tonne of bricks the past two days. I don't think my friends with kids would understand.
Has anyone else had this?! I feel like a horrible person! Kill me now!
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LariyahSpen · 10/05/2016 18:50
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