Hi, am a SAHM to 3 DC ages 11, 6 and 5 and have been since DC1 was born. Enjoy my role very much and put a lot into it, as does DH. Recently have been experiencing moments of complete rage , not just being quite angry, but literally for example, pulling one of them up by the neck of their t shirt and saying really awful, bully type things. I am ashamed and embrrased. They all play really well together and have lots of fun and obviously have their arguments and fights, which before I could ignore, but the last few weeks, they have been making me see red to the point where I feel I could lose control, esp with the older one if he is fighting with the middle one. For example today - DC1 smacked DC2's hand out of the way of something he was doing quite hard and aggressively; we were in quite a crowded place, and without thinking, I pulled him by the arm and hissed what a 'little shit' he was being. I have NEVER said anything like that before!!! He laughed, I think in disbelief but knew I was not happy. But the worse thing was I felt like hurting him back. Oh its lots of different things, and I have started nagging them daily about how they dont do this or that and how they used to be so great. Awful I know They are my absolute world,and I love them so dearly, I have no idea where this has come from. I cant even say I am PMT, but what has driven me to write is - when I was reading a story about a mummy, Daddy and 3 baby bears who told them every night "they were the best 3 baby bears in the whole world", DC2 said I wish you would say that to us. It made me feel sick as it wasnt all that long ago, I couldnt tell them that enough and I did, all the time (tho not bears obviously!!) Sorry to ramble, just had to find somewhere to get this off my chest, do not feel comfortable talking to hubbi about it quite yet.
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