My DP has just announced he doesn't want another child, ever. Until he issued this edict I thought I was happy with one, too, but now I feel utterly wretched. Can you wise ladies help me through my head?
History needed: I'm 44, and DP is 10 years younger. We started trying for a baby five years ago, and had four late miscarriages and a failed adoption attempt before conceiving, and keeping hold of, DS who was born last July.
I love him beyond all measure, and am trying to treasure every second as at my age I know it's unlikely I'll have another.
We were just 'seeing how it went', not using contraception, and while I was hoping for another had accepted it probably wouldn't happen. In fact, my period was late last month, and when I thought I might be pregnant, suddenly didn't want to be. I didn't know how I'd cope with a toddler and a newborn, and felt oddly disloyal to DS. I also didn't look forward to the endless drudgery having two kids seems to entail.
So, my head doesn't seem to want more than one. My heart is happy with DS - but sad at every new thing he does, as it will be the last time I see these 'firsts', and I can't consider getting rid of his baby clothes, etc. So is it my hormones screwing me up?
DP's reasons for not wanting another are all practical - money, pressure, etc - as well as saying he's worried about my health, and if it all goes wrong again. Which admittedly is quite likely.
But I feel just totally gutted that he's taken away even the glimmer of hope. Maybe it's just because I've spent the past five years trying to get pregnant, using contraception now just feels wrong.
It's the only thing we've really rowed about in five years. And we're both totally intractable, but he holds all the cards.
Sorry this is so long - just need to vent, and for some insightful thoughts from ladies who know!
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herbaceous · 28/06/2010 09:16
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