Hi to anyone who cares to read this.
On Monday I started spotting brown most of the day and then panicked in the evening when it turned bright red. After a visit to an out of hours GP at the hospital I got an early scan the following day.
Although a lot of message boards said bleeding might be okay and might not affect the pregnancy I wasn't surprised when they did the ultrasound and couldn't find anything. And then the internal stick showed the baby hadn't grown past the 6 weeks (I was at 11wks). It had no fetal pole. So this was classed as a missed miscarriage. The hospital sent me home and I have to go in next week for another scan and next steps.
I'm spotting brown still, and red occasionally. I have some mild cramping but I'm not marking a pad at all (sorry TMI!). I'm really scared of the D and C. I am really hoping it all comes out naturally.
No one knows at work, apart from my boss who works in an office in the US (I'm in the UK). I obviously told him and kind of lied to my colleagues to just say I had a cold etc. So I've been working at home in the meantime. I am going into work tomorrow I'm just scared of bleeding a lot at work. Emotionally I feel work will help for a distraction. I dont feel under pressure to go in and will take time off if I feel I need it.
So my main fears are how bad a natural MC will be. And getting pregnant again. It just feels like all my hopes and dreams have been dashed but we did conceive after the first time of trying.
I worry about my age (33) and being overweight (bmi 37, and 17 stone). I blame myself somewhat for the MC because my weight and how anxious I tend to be. I suffer a lot from anxiety.
Any help advice or other stories would be greatly appreciated. I'm just feeling really crap and low at the moment.
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BlueRM · 04/12/2019 14:21
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