I only found out I was pregnant last week. It was super early. I was 4+5 today and I can't stop crying. I feel so alone, and stupid for feeling so overwhelmed by emotions. I know it was so early, I know that we can try again but it just hurts so much right now.
I knew something was wrong. Almost straight away. I just felt it. I knew it wasn't sticky. I've got 3 other children and somehow this felt different. I keep thinking that maybe it was me thinking this that made it happen, even though logically I know that is not true.
I know no one can say anything to make me feel better, but I kind of just wanted to post to acknowledge that I was pregnant. That this baby existed.
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Miscarriage/pregnancy loss
I lost my baby today.
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Whyhaveidonethis · 21/05/2019 00:24
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AlunWynsKnee ·
21/05/2019 00:30
It's the loss of the life you believed in however briefly that was. Be kind to yourself 
madroid ·
21/05/2019 00:36
It's funny when you know things aren't right. I've heard a few friends say that and felt it myself. I had a 'missed' mc at 11 weeks. I had actually had two other mc and not been very affected by them. But the third one floored me for some reason. It's a very lonely experience even though up to a quarter of pregnancies are thought to end with mc
I think you have to allow yourself to grieve. Give in to it. Take time off and treat yourself as if you're recovering. I took a month in the end. Felt very guilty about it at the time but looking back I think it did allow me to to properly come to terms with it. You will feel better with time. I'm sure the medical professionals will have told you it's not your fault. Most mc are for no known reason.
It's not your fault. Just something was wrong this time.
Look after yourself
Apileofballyhoo ·
21/05/2019 00:43
I'm sorry, OP. Whatever feelings you have, they are real and valid. He or she was your little tiny baby. I lost a baby at 11.5 weeks. It's a few years ago now but I am still sad when I think of it and the sadness remains even though life goes on. Allow yourself to grieve.
hugs
CookieBlue ·
21/05/2019 14:05
So sorry OP. I went through the same thing in January this year and was quite shocked at how much it absolutely floored me. All I can say is that it does get easier, those first few days/weeks are the worst but the pain does start to ease. I also found talking to people and being open about what had happened was a huge weight off my chest. Take care of yourself
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