I haven't posted on here for a while, but I am still really struggling with the loss of my daughter at 20 weeks back in December. My four year old daughter started school this week, and I had envisaged I would have been taking her with a pushchair in tow, but this was not to be. I ache for my baby so much. We lost two previous pregnancies in 2013 and 2014 at 7 and 10 weeks respectively, and I am grieving not just my losses, but the time that has passed since. My four year old keeps on playing role play games, with her pretending to be me, and her having grown a baby. She was so upset when we lost the baby, and she said last week that she really wanted to be a big sister, which upsets me greatly as we have lost this opportunity three times now and I really didn't want her to be an only child.
We are trying again now having had recurrent miscarriage tests and having found I have a mild blood clotting disorder, and I am just so desperate to be pregnant again now and hope that it will be a case of fourth time lucky. Is there anyone else on this boat? I'm 34 so I know I have a bit of time, but I feel so bitter when I friend has a baby now, and don't like this about myself.
Sorry, just had to get it out, it has been such a tough time and hope it gets easier and that brighter times are ahead. Xx
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JOMH1982 · 08/09/2016 11:23
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