4th chemical in 6 months, ttc for 2.5 yrs

[10storeylovesong]

Hi, I'm not really sure what I'm after here other than trying to offload a little. I have a ds already who I'm very thankful for. He was born 13 weeks prem after I formed a large blood clot on my placenta - it was never discovered what caused it but put down to one of these things.

We've now been ttc #2 for 2.5 years and after 2 years of absolutely nothing I've gone on to have chemicals in Jan, Feb and April this year.

I found out I was pregnant last Wed and it felt differently this time. Really strong positives on all types of tests and plenty of symptoms. Last night I started with severe cramps and bright red bleeding so I assume I've had another (5 weeks exactly) although the blood seems to have pretty much stopped today. I've got a GP appointment later today but I just feel so helpless and lost.

I'm going to ask about Hughes syndrome as I know that can be a major cause of recurring early losses and also clotting in pregnancy, but my GPs are utterly disinterested so I'm not sure I'll get anywhere.

How do people just carry on and keep trying? I'm not convinced I can carry on doing this to myself.