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[lilygirl81]

I am very early days (4+5), I don't feel like I've got the right to be upset, I'm not sure if this classes as a miscarriage or will just be counted as a chemical pregnancy, but I did get 3 BFP's, it's a real baby to me.
I'm at my desk, trying not to cry. I don't know how to say to my boss, or even if I should.
I can't remember what to do, it's been 8 years since my last.

[slightlyconfused85]

Poor you. You have every right to be upset- you had started a little life and it's not working out this time. Mine started at work too- go and see you manager, tell them if you can, and go home, go to bed and drink tea. If you don't want to say just say you are ill and need to go home.
Take care of you

[Derbygirl37]

I'm so sorry lilygirl I'm going through exactly the same thing. Mine started early on Friday morning when I was 4+3. I was (and still am) devastated. You need to go home, put your feet up and rest. It's perfectly ok to grieve for that little baby (just as I am) and emotionally it hurts like hell. Sending lots of love xxxx

[lilygirl81]

So sorry you are going through this too Derby

I just feel so stupid for getting so excited, given that this is pregnancy #3 and still ttc #1, I should have known better

[Derbygirl37]

I know exactly how you feel and it's really difficult. I got my BFP on the Sunday (2 tests, different makes), went to the doctors to get confirmation on Monday, told work on the Tuesday (I'm a community nurse so felt I'd need support with the workload etc) and started bleeding on the Friday. I feel such an idiot for allowing myself to get excited and for telling people. I feel like a fraud for having time off work too. I've done another test and it was definitely a negative. I'm at the doctors this afternoon xx

[lilygirl81]

I think I'm going to do one thing that needs doing and then say to my boss, probably knows something is wrong, I keep racing out the room

[Derbygirl37]

Yes, tell your boss then go home and look after yourself. Thinking of you Lily xxx

[DizzyMerry]

You have every right to be upset lily. You may have only known for a few days but this is your baby, a life you created and started to bond with. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Hope you managed to get home. Please look after yourself x

[lilygirl81]

I did tell my boss, he was lovely, but the worst thing was the look of delight on his face when I said I'd found out I was pregnant, just that second before I said what was happening.
Anyway, curled up with a hot water bottle waiting on DH to come home. Thank you for all your support x