I just wanted to say thank you for all of the kindness and openness from people posting here. It has really helped me to read through all the threads - both emotionally and practically. I'm so sorry for people's losses. I just had my second miscarriage, or rather I'm in the middle of a mmc. I had some spotting on Monday and was booked in for an u/s. Should have been 10+5 but there was only a very small sac and the baby was only measuring 5 weeks, no heartbeat. It's just, I can't come to terms with it. I had a massive weep and have had several days of this grinding grief, but my body hasn't caught up with the fact that the baby has died and because of that it all feels unreal. The hardest thing is the radiologist was just so offhand and ambiguous about it. I have to go back in 'in case dates were wrong', to have another scan and confirm the baby isn't growing, but I know that I don't have the dates wrong as I had two hCG draws at around 5 weeks, and the numbers were high and increasing then.
My family and partner have been so supportive but life has weirdly gone back to normal for them, where I just feel trapped in this limbo. My previous mc was at 6 weeks and only a few days after a BFP, and it happened quickly, just like a very heavy and long period. But now I'm hardly even spotting, no cramping, nothing. Only thing is that I've lost all symptoms, like they just turned off as soon as I had the scan. I know they'll talk me through the medical options soon, but I'm scared, even going back in for the second ultrasound seems unbearable. I'm sorry, I don't really have a question for anyone. I just wanted to have a place to share this strangeness and loss.
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Missed miscarriage limbo
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tigermilk · 23/07/2015 10:00
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