I am new to posting online but I'm really needing to get my thoughts out of my head and I'm hoping posting on here I will help.
I had an unconfirmed miscarriage in June (very painful bleeding 3days after a positive test, hospital said I could have taken the test wrong as they got a negative result or it was already getting ready to come away when I did the test.) I then became pregnant again straight away and sadly at the 12 wk scan there was no heartbeat after the agonising week waiting for another scan to confirm I chose the surgical route to bring it to an end.
I am now left with heartache and an overwhelming feeling of guilt. I had hated being pregnant (feeling tired, getting bigger etc) and I didn't hide it but I had had no pains or bleeding so assumed everything was ok.
I know it was not my fault what happened but I cant help the feeling that I wished it, I never wanted to be pregnant, was planning to adopt from before I met DH but in Jan we decided to start trying, but have always been scared of pregnancy. However I still rub my belly like I'm pregnant nearly a month later.
Thank you for listening feels nice to have it out don't have many people to talk to and those that knew, I feel that they think, I'm still going on about it and I need to move on.
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Emerlily · 28/10/2014 00:32
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