Hi Ladies
Firstly, jut want to apologise I'm adding yet another gloomy thread to my rosta, but I'm really struggling and need to offload :-(
I'm now 13 weeks post my mmc (and ERPC and infection). I've just had my 3rd period and I guess in a way I should count my blessings that my body is working efficiently so soon after it all.
The first 8 weeks after my miscarriage were really dark times, I struggled to get out of bed in the morning, let alone do any house work, but due to having my DD who's 5, and my hubby who works full time I made myself carry on as normal and only let myself cry when I was alone, or in the company of the few friends that knew.
Then around weeks 9 - 12 my "fog" seemed to lift, and I felt a bit back to my normal self, battered and bruised emotionally but not too bad, but the last 7 days I've been struggling again, feeling emotionally unstable and not sleeping, or giving a damn about housework etc. in terms of the emotions it's feeling very raw and if it has just happened all over again. I either cry, shout or shut myself away and my husband, friends and family have been very unsupportive and expect me to be over it now, and when a friend announced her pregnancy I cried (Out of jealousy, I am happy for her, truley I am, but I got accused if being selfish and asked to leave her house, so I'm sure this doesnt help).
Is it "normal" to feel this 13 weeks later? Am I being over dramatic? I'm sick of feeling disgusting and defective as a woman, why couldn't I carry my DS (who's 5) to full term (born at 28 weeks due to PET) and now a miscarriage? I feel bloody awful and really hate myself at the moment. Will my gp help this far post miscarry or do I have to deal with it alone now xx
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MrsGiraffe12 · 30/08/2013 18:35
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