Funeral, starting to think about it

[FluffyDucky]

Well tonight is out first night back at home, we have been staying with in laws since discharge on Friday. (We had a termination at 15 weeks pg after finding out baby wouldnt survive)
Tonight I feel utterly bereft and feel like I am a million miles from anything. My husband is being amazing.
I really don't want to do it, I don't want to think about it and wish it wasn't happening, but the funeral. I wish I didn't have to have it at all but we do. We are expecting a call from the bereavement midwife tomorrow then the funeral director soon I think.
I've found a nice reading called Little Snowdrop - The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.
The little one we longed for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
For every beating of our hearts
Says that we love you.

Started to think about music too. We are going to have a cremation and the reading done by a humantist celebrant. Sorry if rambling. I feel very disjointed, I'll feel ok for a while then it's like a lorry hitting me with every emotion possible. Please tell me it gets better. I just want to feel our baby in our arms.

[Tomkat79]

Oh fluffy, bless your heart. I'm so so sorry you've had to go through this.

The reading is beautiful.

We lost our much wanted bubba at 8 weeks, 8 weeks ago. It's a very emotional rollercoaster, as you say one minute you're ok and then bang. You still have lots of hormones running through your body that don't help the situation. It's try and ride the waves, it's ok to feel whatever you feel whenever you feel it. If you work make sure you take the time off that you need, at least 2 weeks.

So glad DH supportive. Hold each other tight.

Love x