3rd pregnancy in 10 months last 2 failed :-( so scared

[scaredmummy2B]

So scared! Has anyone been in a similar position? We were pregnant in Dec last year 11weeks we miscarried on xmas day! We then became pregnant in may to lose our baby in June being sent back to the epu every week for 5 weeks to check baby still wasn't. Growing and Dion.u have a heartbeat it was the worst experience ever and after hoping and praying they will find a heartbeat every time we went back for a scan and finding nothing for the 5 time the told me that was it no hope was left I should have been 9 weeks but baby still only measured 5 weeks and showed no heart beat had a dnc ended up back in a week after because they left some behind and had an infection!

We decided to leave it there I've suffered sever depression and am on anti depressants (pregnancy friendly ones) were getting married Aug 2013 so we were going to try again after that to give my body and mind a rest but its happened anyway a week before I was booked in to get the rod!

Of course we both want a baby really bad ,I have a 3 year old girl and he has 2 boys 4 and 6 but we would love one more! One together with getting married then our family will be complete!

I just found out today I'm 3 weeks pregnant I'm not telling anyone or going to doctor because s don't want dark. Internal scans like last time I'm Jon scared! We brought vitamins and folic acid today so I'm taking them just gonna sit and hope I don't mis carry before 12 week scan and everythingp ok coz I'd have to in. Through that again!

Any advice?
Anyone been through the same!?
Pls help

[Geekster]

I'm so sorry you have been through all this. I can also understand you not wanting to tell anyone you are pregnant again too. I'll be honest in that I haven't got any great advice for you. I had six miscarriages before I had my dd in March, so it can happen, you can have a healthy pregnancy. It probably doesn't feel like it now and I know you will feel constantly on edge now you are pregnant again. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you. Xx

[messtins]

Not surprised you are scared. Congratulations on the BFP and hope this one is sticky for you, but of course you are anxious. I had a MC in between my 2 boys and was horribly anxious for my whole pregnancy with DS2, it really takes the gloss off what should be a happy time. I've had another MC trying for DC3 and if I ever manage to get pregnant again I know I'll be a nervous wreck. There's a nice supportive thread over on the conception board for people who are TTC or pregnant after miscarriage (called "TTC after miscarriage" but several ladies on there have recent BFPs). Maybe you should join us for a bit of moral support?

[scaredmummy2B]

Thanks sw much for your support girls I don't understand all the short hand just yet I'm very new to this not telling anyone so got no support just didn't know where to turn my partner is very supportive but don't understand like other women do! I can feel any twitch so nervous bending down or picking up my little girl! I said I am not doing anything special I believe if its meant to be it will and being careful the last 2 times didn't on me any good did it! But I still find myself cutting down on coffee and being carefull lifting and things I really don't want this awful anxious feeling to take over my life for the next 8 months and thats the best case senario :-/

[purple84]

I just wanted to say good luck and I really wish you the best for this pg.
x

[scaredmummy2B]

Thank you sw much purple this site really helps