I Am Really worried am i ever gonna be mum agian

[luul]

Thanks, for ur reply i really apprecaite that. my englisj is not my first language so excuse me for my spelling and broking words i will try my best.
I hard my daughter 2009 vie emergency c section as wasnt dilating more the 5cm i was in labour for 30hours.
After the c section a week later i came home went back to hospital for infection after my wound opened up and i have to stay in hospital to get check if i do need another operation but luckily i didnt and i stayed another week. I came home with anitibiotics and the nurse use to come to clean my wound, it took me three month for my wound to heal and close up completely. Since then i'm suffering with my scar been hurting like u said when something toughes muscles around my lower tummy. it doesnt hurt deep but out side tummy the flesh. i dont why but sometime i think is it because i sat long hours onxmy computer could it bee that. after one year and have not trying to get pregnant, and still fearfull of the bad exerience i hard. I start to think my be is my weight let me lose it and exercise. i was size 16 and go down to 8 can u imagen it tooke me 8month. at same time i was having weird period in the middle of my cycle and i was trying to get pregnant nothing happend. As before i fool pregnant with my daughter the first try and, i hard miscarrage before her as well just 3month. this time it was nearly a year and nothing. i ask my Gp why is my period going weird middle cycle and stuff,and they send scan and they said i have Asherman's adhesion on my basically scar in my uterus. I panic i want to get second opinion a doctor call Mr Lower i dont if u heard him gynecologys specailise with scaring and Asherman. any way he told me this scar is infection which cause by ur c section and if u really dont do it as soon as possible u mate left infertility for good. I said to my self ok may be the reason why my wound and scar didnt heal is because this thing i should do it as soon as possible for my own good. if i wait NHS it could take me to wait one year.and i cant wait one year, and i did the surgery which cost me £5,000 a lots money i have to borrow from friends. he checkt my fallopian tubes and they wher open, after the surgery i got pregnant with in two month and miscarreg after 6 weeks lukeliy i didnt have to have d&c or anything it was last year 2011 Sep, and i got Pregnant again jan 2012 start bleeding 5weeks went hospital my uterus serviks were close and they didnt know where the blood from at 6 weeks i pass cloths and a lots blood which make me believe i miscarrge the baby,but agian my serviks were close and theiris yolk sec and feats but no heart beat, they said we have to wait and see if anything changes 7week nothing change except something call hematoma i dont know if u ever heard this, the baby didnt grow from 6 weeks. i did still bleed through 8 weeks i hard enough this time. i want just everthing to end as i was suffering morning sickness aswell, i didnt want to wait any longer. at 8 weeks the sac is growing but not feats and their is no hope as this time we should see heart beat i just give up and said to ladie i dont want D&C, can u over me anthing else and she said Medical management i said ok, and miscarrieg next day i lose a lots blood and i end up hospital and everthing is gone except the hematoma which was as big three cm. another two weeks nothing come out just bleeding light dark blood sorry the detail.
at end i have to have D&C to remove that bit which didnt come out, the worse thing i want have was D&C which really cause scaring more, have no choice i have to,after D&C i bleed 10dys like period. after 34days my D&C i got my period it is lighter then before. i dont know if it because its like this after D&C or my scar come back. and i olso have pain around my scar c section. i dont know what to do next by the way i'm 27 i really want have at list three children and my dream of having tham is getting impossible. tell me ur advice and what should i. what do u think, many thanks