Hi. I don't know where to start really. I miscarried yesterday, after I began bleeding on Monday morning, I was 7 weeks with my second baby. I knew there was something wrong (I had bleeds with my first), so went in to the gynae ward monday afternoon, where they did two internals, and found that the neck of the womb was closed.
The bleeding got worse on Monday after coming home from the hospital, so I called back in, and was told that it was likely to be because of a cervical erosion and the internals would have aggravated this. The nurse told me to look out for soaking a pad in an hour or less, or clots appearing. I felt ok after I spoke to her; what she said seemed to make sense.
Tuesday morning I woke up with blood on the bed, and it just wouldn't stop coming. Called into the ward again, and again I was told that it would be the erosion, and an appointment was made for the EPC for Wednesday for a scan. Thing is, as the morning continued, the bleeding got heavier (not to the degree that I was soaking a pad in an hour though) and I began clotting. Then the cramps started, with incredible back pain. Called in again, and was asked to come in, where they did a scan, and we were told it wasn't good news. The sonographer said it was good news that there was nothing left in the womb though, so I didn't need surgery.
To be honest, I was ready for them telling me that, but I feel so completely empty. I don't know how to move on from this either. My husband is great, but I just feel so alone. does anyone have any ideas or guidance? I feel as though I'm never going to get over this, and that I must have done something horribly wrong. I keep thinking back to Sunday when I felt ok, and that all was well. I'm feeling very raw, and I'm finding it hard to keep myself together.
I'm so sorry for the long post. I haven't miscarried before, so I'm on this rollercoaster ride from hell right now, and don't know how to deal with it. I was depressed a few months back, and now I feel that I'm back to square one. I feel terribly selfish given that I already have a beautiful son, and this was my first mc. They suspected an ectopic at week 5-6, so I had a scan where they found the sac; a follow up scan two weeks later found a foetal pole, but again I measured at 5-6 weeks. My husband reckons that there was something wrong from there, but I can't help but think it's my fault. I know that so many mc are unexplained, but the not knowing is killing me.
Anyone have any words of wisdom? I'm really desperate, how do I move on from this?
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Miscarried at 7 weeks, any advice?
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Gillybean2010 · 27/07/2011 09:38
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