I feel so ashamed at myself tonight, I lost my temper with DC's.
Im not making excuses for my behavior but its been a hard week.
Firstly I have been trying to decorate and put together ikea furniture for DD's bedroom it has been going well so far, it is a little fustrating though having to stop and start with them being off school, but I work for myself and this really is the only week I have free for a while as once they are back at school I will be busy.
Im just feeling so stressed, doing all the decorating myself, looking after kids and plenty of days out/activities, boiler has gone funny when washing machine is on the heating comes on, my dads really off on one at the moment and my mum is off loading on to me. So after trying to watch the kids and assemble ikea stuff, make tea, tidy up the mess they had made whilst I was doing said ikea stuff, I took them up stairs for a shower.
Ds got in shower first after asking him several times and I was sorting out DDs toys ready to put back in her room (they are all over my bedroom floor,I cant sleep with them like this) DD whining (think she is coming down with something) Then DS shouts MUM! I have pulled down the shower curtain so go into bathroom to find indeed it had come down and water was everywhere meanwhile DD was trying to close her curtains and (God knows how) managed to pull and snap one of the fittings I had just put up.
I remained calm had a chat about being gentle with things.
DD's turn for shower, fixed shower curtain, DD crying not wanting a shower, tired etc for 5 mins, she got in, I went to fix other curtains and continue putting toys back and she starts screaming and crying even louder about not wanting a shower, I know she was tired and I shouldnt have but I lost it and threw all items off my bed on to floor (which frightened DS (7) ) stormed into bathroom and shouted really loudly at her for shouting and screaming Im so sick of doing it all myself, I just dont have enough time for everything and end up feeling guilty all the time for not doing this/that.
I feel like the shittest mummy ever. They really are great kids too.
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Tidgypuds · 16/08/2008 23:25
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