I’ve never lived alone. It just so happened that I always had a roommate at uni, and my parents supported me of course, and then I met my first husband and like a month later we started living together. We were together for 12 years, have a child together, but then we divorced. When that happened, I quickly met someone else and we again moved in together after just a few months. It just happened... or maybe it’s me being completely insecure and unable to be on my own? Anyway, now after 8 years together, we have also split up, and we have a kid together too. But I’ll now be a single mum, with 2 kids, I’ve just turned 40, and the prospect of being single is so daunting. I’m talking to a therapist about it but it doesn’t help. I worry that now for the first time in my life I will rely only on my income (plus child support) and that if I lose my job, that’s it. And it’s not just me but me and my two kids. I’ve kind of been dating someone for a few months, but I’m catching myself thinking ‘oh maybe it’s time for us to move in together’ when I barely know the guy. Rationally, I understand that it’s way too early to even think about moving in, or to hope that he or anyone else might support me financially. I also understand that I am a big girl and I really need to be able to be single and be ok with it, I don’t want to be with my ex - we split up for a reason. But I still sometimes catch myself thinking that maybe we should try and get back together - not because we love each other, that’s now gone, but because it would be much more stable and secure for the kids. And then I think, c’mon, I can’t be with the guy, I want a fresh start, other people do it, and I can do it too. I try to tell myself this but frankly it I just don’t sound convincing when I listen to my thoughts. Why is it so scary? Will it pass? Will I be able to take care of myself and my two kids without waiting for anyone’s support - and be ok with it? Any tips would be so appreciated... I really need some advice.
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