Sorry, I just really (desperatly) need to let off steam!
2010 came to an end and I was feeling really positive about my plans for 2011. However, the more I think about it, the more I panic that I won't be able to cope with it all and I am afraid that I'm not thinking clearly enough.
The list:
- move houses to be nearer ds' school and uni. Can't sell own house due to negative equity so plan to do nothing, walk away from it and let XP sort it out for once - when we broke up I arranged letting agents visits, I did everything and although he was at home (supposedely looking for work following redundancy), he didn't lift a finger. Well, he was like that the whole time we were together, always needing a good 'nudge' to get him going so I think now I will just leave it to him and if he doesn't sort it out, it'll be his credit history ruined too. I simply cannot move to another county, with everything I've got on and no help, and still have to see to the house when it's both our responsibilities
- reduce working hours from full time to ca. 40% from August
- start uni in september, studying full-time
- find weekend work to top up income - had my first job interview outside my company in 10 years the other day and it went very badly indeed; starting position, very basic, and i still managed to not fully answer questions... head in the clouds?!?! I REALLY wanted the job as company in line with what I am going to be studying and very good environment
- complete work qualification even though not relevant to my role at all... either that or will have to repay the full amount back to company
Right, deep breaths...!