Lonely and 'grieving'

[whydoiletthishappen]

Tonight I've realised that I am suffering grief for all the failed treatments. It's hit me hard tonight.
I feel no friends or family understand. I'm sobbing.

I just feel so alone.

[PastaSauceHoarder]

Oh you poor thing. What a horrible yet completely normal and justified way to feel, I'm so sorry.
Have you got the support of your partner?

[Fridgedooropen]

Sorry you are suffering OP. It is painful. I haven't had tons of treatments but I am facing the fact I am not going to get pregnant as I've been trying to do for the last few years.

[whydoiletthishappen]

The treatments span approx 9 years, the last one being approx 3 years ago.

My H is totally unsupportive of my feelings.

He thinks, I believe, that it's just a fact and that's that. He's blase and seems not to really care.He has a nephew via his sister and i have a nephew and niece via my brother.
Family issues are getting in the way of us all getting along together.
My parents seem to accept that their son produced two beautiful funny and loving children that spend a fair bit of time with all their grandparents on a regular basis and they have sleep overs with their grandparents (my parents).I'd like to have my nephew and niece for sleepovers at my house but I think my H would try to avoid it. I can't explain why though. I can't put my finger on it. His nephew has slept over at our house although this has stopped because his mum doesn't like me. His dad is a waste of oxygen quite frankly so only the nephew and his mum have anything to do with the dad.

I feel so sad I will not get to be a parent and further on from that I will not get to be a grandparent either.This is not the life I imagined for myself. H is withdrawing from having any fun, at least he does not want to socialise or go out with me. We don't eat out/go to cinema/go food shopping or anything. We don't visit either of our families together any more. I got to visit my family and he goes to visit some of his family. We don't have our families come to visit both of us at home. H feels that he is victimised because he take so long to do any diy jobs etc which he is fully capable of and just puts off and puts off and then says he has not had time to do the jobs because he has been busy.

[Weedance]

I'm so sorry to hear this. You sound achingly sad. It's important to have an outlet for your feelings and these forums are obviously really supportive. Have you also thought about having some counselling to help you deal with the feelings of grief and loss? It can really help. for you. You will get through this, don't be afraid to reach out for the help that is there. Counselling can be a lifeline