Sat in the house on my own listening to next doors baby crying and my god, it hurts. I feel like an utter knob sat here crying.
I'm usually ok with the infertility thing, feel like I'm coping ok but for some reason today it's just got to me.
We've now been trying for 10 years. What a shitty milestone. Yesterday I saw a Facebook post from an ex colleague whose little boy is coming up for 2. Had I not miscarried my only ever pregnancy after ivf, mine would have been due around the same time. If life weren't so fucking unfair I'd have a 2 year old.
Since I started ivf my friend has had two kids and another is about to have her first. I try so hard to be ok with it all. Sat at friends baby shower recently and realised that I was the only person in the room who hasn't got a child. Fucking hell, it hurts!
And I've got a beautiful toddler next door and a baby the other side. I hear the toddler playing and the baby crying and it's just yet another reminder of what I desperately want but can't have.
I don't even know why I'm writing this post, but just needed to get it out.
Need to pull it together before dh gets home because I can't bear to be upset in front of him.
Shit, life sucks.
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Usually ok, just not today
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GuntyMcGee · 12/07/2017 19:54
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