And thats it really!!
We are over two years TTC now. Male factor infertility. Looking like IF we can start treatment it will be at the end of the year at the earliest. And i am loosing interest in my friends lives. I am lucky that i still have friends without children, not many but some, so thats good, we meet up and hang out and its great. But in every circle of friends i have there is at least one with a baby. I was able for a long time to be happy and interested and ask all the right questions. But now, i just don't give a sh*t and it makes me feel like such a cow. I have no interest in texting these friends as i know the response to "how are you" will be centred around the child. No interest in arranging a time to see them as i know they cant possibly ever leave the child at home with its father and meet me like two normal adults. 2 years ago i could play the game, but i don't seem to be able to anymore. Meeting up now revolves around parks and playgrounds and i am loosing it!!! THey all have just one child but its coming up to the 2 year mark where normally second pregnancies are announced and to be honest I don't think i could fake it. I think my sister is pregnant with her second and i feel awful as i want to be so happy for her but its plagued by absolute grief.
Some days i am super positive and others, like today , i am a bloody grinch!!!
Maybe its time for more counselling
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MrsDarcy4092 · 05/04/2016 20:31
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