Anxiety 😞

[Kej36]

Hi everyone.. I am so desperate for some help or advice..

I have an 18mo son, I left the job I absolutely loved after my maternity was up due to anxiety, pnd and what I felt was a lack of support from my old manager, along with not knowing where to start in regards to trusting someone else to care for my baby boy when he was still so young!
I miss that job so much. I’m at the point now where I am so so low on money, I have so many bills and lots of credit to repay each month that I can’t afford to have a quality of life, to do nice things with my little one or treat us to anything. we just about have money for food. I want to get a job, but I have such bad anxiety I can’t bring myself to get a job.. I feel like such a mess for the situation I am in, and like I am acting like a child. But I am so scared of the world nowadays I struggle to even leave the house to go get milk from the shops or make a phone call or answer my front door!!
I used to have such responsibilities in my old job, and now I feel so stupid, I struggle to put sentences together out loud now. I have zero confidence.

I’ve started citalopram just 10 days ago and am hoping it will help more over time - no miracles yet, been referred for counselling but it may take months before I start that.

Has anyone else ever felt like this or been in a similar position?😞

[Herocomplex]

I can hear how low you feel, and I hope you find some comfort in me saying how very sorry I am to read what a miserable time you’re having.
You’ve made a great step in getting help for your anxiety, it’s very hard to admit you’re struggling and move forward. Please recognise what a lot you’ve already done.
Take small steps, you’ll get there.

[Kej36]

Thank you so much Herocomplex, it took me many months (maybe even a year) of being so scared to visit and talk to a GP so the fact I did that recently to try get some more help was huge for me! Just wish there was a magic cure that worked overnight.. but like you said small steps x

[Herocomplex]

Kej36 I think you may get more responses if you repost this on another board?
I see why you’ve put it on back to work (and you will get there!) but I think there’s better places for the stage you’re at now xx

[Kej36]

Thank you, I don’t really use mumsnet often so didn’t see all the different sub-categories/boards. I’ve now started a new thread under mental health as I didn’t know how to move this one, thank you again 🙂xx