(have namechanged as this might out me)
I handed in my notice as a senior teacher, intending to be a SAHM. Finances have proved to not make this workable, and poor DH is stressed to the hilt trying to get promoted about two grades so that we can afford for me to be at home.
Now DS is 11 months and I need to start looking for part time work I think. I just can't get my head around it though and feel panicky and depressed about it. I was psyched up to be a SAHM and have total baby brain and lack of ability to put myself forward.
I know loads of people do it, I know lots of people go back to the same job part time or full time. I'm finding it really hard
My main angst is that I literally don't know whether it is best for DS if I am at home with him or if it's actually in his best interests to be in nursery for 2/3 days. There is so little unbiased info available. All my NCT friends who are returning to work part-time think the nurseries they've looked at seem fab and really beneficial for their babies. I feel like 1yo is so small, so young to cope with a full day of nursery. DS struggles to stay happy and playful for a 1.5hr baby group at the moment! I guess a half day twice a week would feel better.
I just don't know if it's going to be miserable for him I don't want to do it and I will work on Saturdays doing tuition, which I have been doing now for 2 months but find it intrusive to our family time and home generally as we have a small house I have to kick DH and DS out for a few hours while I work, and the house has to be clean and tidy by Saturday morning.
Urgh I'm aware this is an incoherent rant. But I can't rant in rl because DH is under so much pressure, and my NCT friends are all happily returning to work.
Please someone tell me what to do?! we just thought we could make it work and we can't. Am I too late even, to get any kind of childcare from Jan if I can find something?!
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Djembe · 05/11/2012 11:00
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