I am so fed up. back pain, leg pain, just cant get it under control for any real length of time. Been prescribed amitriptyline which i have been taking for a week. the side affects arent too bad, but groggy in the day, slightly vacant no change there but the mornings are a real problem, been managing them by taking earlier in the evening and although mornings are hard, been forcing myself to get up, mainly as DH has not really accepted me laying in bed when kids need getting ready (am off sick from work, again).
yesterday it al got mixed up with the meds as i had a kay-in, so took meds later (slow release tramdol etc) then was in a lot of pain by 6pm so took more meds, forgot to take my tramadol and amitriptyline at the right time, remembered at 10pm and said I should probably miss that dose, just take normal tramadol start again today, DH said 'oh nonono you got to keep taking them you will be ok' I reminded him I will struggle to get up, he got the meds for me to take.
This morning I really could not get up. I felt mentally unable to will myself out of bed, I kept dozing off, waking up with drool on my pillow (bluergh!). DH said 'its time to get up' when the kids bounded in, it felt like 5am. DS said 'who is going to get up with us' and DH said 'we both are' I said that I needed a little bit more time and he huffed out of bed, did not bother trying to get me up again. He brought me a drink as he left with the children to take DD to school, did not ask how I am, dutiful kiss, which I was not able to respond to as it was not gentle, just perfunctory, and off he went. When he came back he did not come up to see me.
Friend of his came over with his child they are taking the kids swimming, he cooked breakfast, I tried to get my medication from the cupboard (high up, struggled due to pain) and he just asked me to move out of the way so he could cut bread. Anyway, breakfast was fine, we all chattered, DS hurt himself, I went to see him and he insisted on me picking him up, the men looked on while I struggled to do so.
Then I mentioned the McMillan Coffee Morning as DDs school, I had really wanted to go to it, and I missed it and DH said 'yeah could have fooled me you stayed in bed!' I told him that I did not want to stay in bed, I could not get up. He did not respond.
I lay on the sofa in pain, and feeling teary because he just does not get it. And if he does not get it when he is with me all the time, how can others get it? He came to say goodbye before taking the kids out, gave me a kiss, tears were running down my face and he didn't say a thing. Just another dutiful kiss. He did not even bring my DS in to say goodbye, just left.
I can't see how I can get back to work like this, the pain is to up and down. And I have no-one to talk to or support me, even my DH has had enough it and no longer asks how I am. He has not once asked how I am today, when I challenge him on it he says 'i know how you are'. He obviously does not tell the children I have not got up because my back is painful/meds effect so they are going to think I just don't care enough.
That was exceptionally long. Sorry. I doubt if you will read it but I needed to get it out. I really wish
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Need to moan about my back pain and meds and other stuff
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Pavlovthecat · 01/10/2012 12:02
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