Sorry people, this is a very long post and also a TRIGGER WARNING as I have described in detail what happened. Was this rape?
I have been talking to a guy on and off for about three years, and last week after a few (well.. a lot of) drinks out with some girlfriends he offered to come and pick me up and I went to his house. I was very drunk. He was completely sober.
We’ve been on one date before but nothing happened and we never met up again until this time.
So, back to what happened, I went to his house about 3am and he made me some food. By the time it had cooked and we had eaten it was almost 5am so he asked if I wanted to stay the night and he would drop me back in the morning. I knew this meant he wanted to have sex and I accepted, and we did have consensual enjoyable sex.
This is the part where I need advice, about 15 minutes after that I was falling asleep and I felt him start kissing my neck, I woke up and kissed him back and his hand moved down to my knickers but I moved it away and said i don’t want to. He kept trying to put his hand in my knickers and kept kissing me. I kept my mouth closed and kept turning my head away but he would just keep putting his mouth over mine. I decided I should leave and went to get up but he pulled me back and laid on top of me using his entire body weight to stop me from getting up. I tried to move out from underneath him but he pulled my knickers to the side and forced himself inside me. While he was doing this, I tried to push him away making it clear I did not want it by telling him over and over to stop, but he just kept putting his mouth over mine and biting me. I knew I wouldnt be able to stop him, so I stopped fighting and gave in. I was not enjoying it at all. Then all of a sudden I felt a warmth come over me and I had an orgasm. I don’t know why it happened. I feel disgusting. After I had an orgasm he stopped, moved off of me and laughed at me, he did not ejaculate or attempt to carry on.
Is this still rape if I orgasmed? If he didn’t ejaculate? I had consented to the first time we had sex does this mean he had my consent to do it again? Why did he force himself on me if not for his own sexual benefit?
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Is this rape?
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Spiffysn · 25/11/2018 23:07
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