Name changed as really don't want to be recognised. I think I'm too stressed about work but I can't work out why, or what to do about it.
My LM is in theory very supportive, but I feel as though it's her show and she reveals little bits of information about work/procedures/what's happening as she feels like it. I often feel just slightly confused about my role, how I'm doing and what's going on. She says my work is brilliant and we've just been audited by an external agency and received the highest grade, but she let slip yesterday that "the reason why this (our area of the company) works so well is because I've been here so long and know what to do" - no mention of how hard me and my team work, or that we have improved systems by introducing new and better things over the last year.
I've noticed that there are little things that she has said that don't add up. She has denied hearing back about something when I knew she had, because she'd forgotten or lost the letter (I didn't say anything). I had to ask the original agency for a copy of the letter. I have suggested improvements, which she's not excited by, then a few weeks later she suggests the very same thing as though it's the answer to everything and she's been thinking it for ages.
She also hates the CEO and I've witnessed her and another member of Senior Management undermine the CEO in meetings and also in front of staff. I feel she's a game player and I don't trust her as far as I can throw her.
The thing is, I find myself lying awake in the early hours of the morning tossing and turning about work issues. I even went to A&E last Sunday night as I had an uncomfortably irregular heartbeat and had an ECG etc, which the doctors said was stress induced. I also bite my nails when I'm at work, but don't touch them when I'm on holidays.
I know the thing that stresses me out is not feeling like I'm in control, which I don't, even though I can't put my finger on why I feel like this. It's happened before in previous jobs, so just leaving for a hopefully better job isn't really the answer.
I don't really know what I'm asking - I guess, is this normal? Am I too sensitive? How can I let my confidence override my feelings of inadequacy or uncertainty? I do know that I'm good at my job, but I feel like a dunce when I'm around her.
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amitoostressed · 22/10/2011 10:29
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