First post in this topic - just a vent/hoping someone can relate really, and if anyone has any advice on being supportive without letting her drag me down, that would be fabulous.
I'm 28. Last year I moved across the country for a fabulous job offer, really living my dream, with the caveat that it's only secure for two years. My mother, whom I used to live near and see all the time, is now 200+ miles away. She has always been difficult, and to be fair she does have her challenges. My father died when I was a small child, and in a nutshell, she is not a people person. Nor is my brother whom she sees occasionally. She has 4 dogs (used to be 5) and 2 rabbits, and lives in a large semi-rural property which is all too much for her to maintain really, though she would never hear of surrendering any of her pets, several of which have suffered expensive health problems and needed management this past year. She also just got out of a bad 'relationship' (I put that in inverted commas because she doesn't go into detail with me, but the gist is she feels betrayed but also admits she treated him badly. She does not like men).
Every time I hear from her (which is a lot), she tells me how hard her life is, how she has no-one to help her, how 'shit' this year has been, how her health is declining, how she'll probably have heart problems soon...she recently took up smoking again, for the 'stress', which isn't helping. And I am sympathetic. I try to be. But she tells me she misses me, and I cheer her up (not sure how, she never sounds it!) and subtly makes me feel I need to visit her more (though she wouldn't see it as guilting me. She doesn't do it on purpose). I do try. I went for Christmas, and did some domestic/technological stuff for her - she's trying to wrap up a letting business which she's losing money on and I did some emails and organizational stuff. But the thing is...I'm 200 miles away. I have a very responsible, very time consuming job, which I adore, but it comes with it's stresses. And she is just. So. Negative. About people, mostly. It must be terribly hard to go through life with as negative view of people as she has. I suspect both she and my brother have some form of undiagnosed Aspergers/ASD, but I'm reaching here, they just don't do well in social situations and seem to have trouble reading people. She tells me I am 'like my father', and sounds pleased about it but also perhaps a bit jealous - I like people and socializing, I have no trouble making friends, and I try to see the good in things and make the best of situations. Perhaps I am lucky, maybe I was just born differently to her. What frustrates me is that she has effectively chosen her situation (to live alone, to have all these animals, to smoke, and she also drives people away with her attitude) and yet complains all the time that everything is terrible and she has nobody to 'help' her. I'm starting to dread talking with her and that's a shame, because I do love her very much and I know she's found life difficult. She loves me very much, but I also suspect she has always been rather jealous of me. I've tried subtly hinting that she does have options (to sell up, to downsize her animal collection, to move somewhere less isolated) and that we really have to make our own happiness, but she just gets angry. Except once, when she sort of hinted that one day she would like to move North and live near me or....gulp....with me. (Nope. Nope nope nope. I couldn't wait to leave home at 18 and my mental health and indeed my relationship with her is x1000 better since I have).
Any advice? Anyone can sympathize? I do love her and feel sympathetic for her, but she's starting to frustrate me no end with her 'no-one helps me, my life is so hard, I'll probably die soon' shtick. (She's in her late 60s).
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iloveeverykindofcat · 01/01/2016 09:54
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