Hey!
I’m posting her just for some advice/empathy I guess.
I’m 23 and have suffered with anorexia since the age of 13 (or at least, this was when it was diagnosed).
I’ve hit some pretty low weights during relapses, but last year during my 3rd year of uni involved a pretty bad relapse where I’d lost over 4 stone and required inpatient treatment.
I’ve been in recovery since then and have gained back up to about middle of the range healthy weight (9.5 stone at 5ft 6).
I’m feeling so much happier in myself recently and feel as though I’ve come to accept, and even feel proud of my ‘natural’ shape.
However, I have graduation in 2 weeks where i’ll be meeting with all my old cohort and lecturers. They last saw me when I was at my lowest, and for whatever reason, this has massively triggered aaaalll the thoughts and aallll the insecurities and i’m seriously starting to freak out at the thought of them seeing me as just massively fat. I’m worried they won’t even recognise me, I’ve gained that much weight - I’m terrified of their shocked faces when they realise it’s me.
I feel totally disgusted with myself for losing the control, and just massively triggered. I don’t want to spend, what should be a day of celebration, feeling insecure and gross and fat and embarrassed. :-( any words of reassurance or solidarity would be so appreciated. Lots of love to anyone else’s struggling too xx
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Anorexia recovery - 4.5 stone weight gain
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pippinthepost · 07/09/2018 17:21
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