I don't really know why I'm posting, I guess because this is my big secret and I really can't talk to anyone else. I've suffered from bulimia for about 15 years on and off. The past 2 years it's been pretty much daily. I don't particularly binge, only very occasionally, and I don't get rid of everything I eat, it's usually only dinner. I guess it could be a control thing, not being able to control my food intake in the evening, therefore getting rid of it. It definitely helps me control my weight and in the past year has helped me to get down to a good weight. I'm not thin and never have been. Pre pregnancy I was 9.5 stone, which I was happy with. Now I'm 18 weeks pregnant and despite deciding that this 'habit' would stop, it hasn't, and I can't. It's now got the point where I don't make myself sick, it just happens after I eat a meal. I'm trying to eat little and often and sometimes this helps, but because I can't tell my partner, I can't always avoid eating big meals. I am 36 and this is my first child, a child I was absolutely desperate for. I know I probably need to talk to my doctor, but I really don't want to tell my partner. I think I just needed to get it out there and tell some strangers.
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